whenever i have too much on my mind or something starts to bother me more than it should i always ask myself three questions
would this matter if the world were to end tomorrow
would this matter if i were the only person left in the world
will this matter in a couple of years
the answer is almost always no and my mind is at peace again :-)
it feels good that im finally learning how to overcome my weaknesses
What about lust? What about trust?
I have a really bad habit of only seeing what I wanna see. But god I don’t wanna be like that anymore. I’m slowly ruining my own life this way. I wanna be better for me, for my family, for Nick, and for anyone else I care about. I’m tired of pushing people away for reasons I make up in my own narcissistic, narrow sighted mind because I always end up looking back and regretting it, wondering why I’m always doing this to people I love, and to myself. I need to learn how to trust people and actually give them a chance instead of half-assing it. I need to stop questioning everybody’s motives and thinking they’re all out to get me and stop letting my huge ego get the best of me. I’m no better than anyone. I have just as much to improve on myself as anyone else. I don’t know when exactly I became such a bitter old hag with such negative thoughts, but I know I wasn’t always like this and I know I no longer want to be like this so I’m not going to be. I’ve wasted enough time being someone I’m not proud to be, it’s about time I get my shit together. When I start liking myself, I won’t find it so hard to believe that other people can like me too.